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Song was written early 2014

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I witnessed the sun fall apart for the moon
And I cried, the fireflies lit the night, and the fairies had moved
I don't think I've ever felt remotely as close to this
And I don't think I'll ever be missed

I sat in a hospital bed as my heart had begun to fail
Although it was only my anxiety calling, I prayed that I would live
Then again, sometimes I hate everyone and also myself
I've accomplished nothing, not proud of becoming, a slave to the feeling of death

And why, why the hell am I afraid, my thoughts are my fears
Sometimes being out with my friends doesn't matter cause nothing is clear
My lungs feel like they don't even work and I can't tell if I have a pulse
I want to say goodbye, but I don't want to say it as a ghost

I witnessed those in love like a movie scene in slow motion
All the happiest parts strung together like a scrapbook, as if nothing bad had happened
And it makes me wonder if I've been alive, or capable enough to survive
I'm trying so hard just to smile, but I what I really need is someone to know that I'm lying

Why, why the hell am I afraid, my thoughts are my fears
Sometimes being out with my friends doesn't matter cause nothing is clear
My lungs feel like they don't even work and I can't tell if I have a pulse
I want to say goodbye, but I don't want to say it as a ghost

I witnessed the sun fall apart for the moon
And I cried, the fireflies lit the night, and the fairies had moved

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from Wilderness Road, released April 7, 2014
Nathan Przekop - Vocals, Guitar, Lyrics

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Cigarettes and Milk Portland, Oregon

Everyone says my moniker is gross. Cigarettes and Milk is the factual and fictitious project of Waldo Przekop. Which is me. Stories of a kid who hates the system of oppression put in place by a capitalist society. Songs of my deepest internal grief and anxiety. I am emotional, almost none of my music is happy. I am a lo-fidelity musician and I am folk out of the gutter. A blueberry farmer too. ... more

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